Back to the Basic Core...
"Burn-Out" part 3
I just wanted to keep you updated on what's happening with us and with OMNIA at the moment because Jenny and me are dealing with a total burn-out caused by overwork, over-input, stress and sorrow.
(Look up "Burn-out" if you are interested in the symptoms or if you are curious as to what it is)
Apparently this form of mental/physical breakdown happens a lot more in modern society than you would guess, you can find tonnes of information about it on the internet ... especially young people get it nowadays!? And once you have it, it really sux and it can take years to heal again.
We have simply ignored the signs that our bodies were giving us, because we tried to give too much of ourselves to the world.
We worked too hard, we tried to do everything perfectly right and correct...We were too truthfull, we were too personal, we were too honourable.
We are just too straight-edge Pagan and too educated for this world...
We can't stand the lies and dishonesty of these times...The world isn't like us...
All our energy reserves were used up in keeping OMNIA on the road...
...We started going quite insane...
In the end we were just surviving on pure adrenaline... there was no-one else to turn to for help (hired assistents didn't work out at all, in fact only made it worse) ...so eventually ... we cracked. We broke down.. I developed scary heart complaints, Jenny developed all sorts of nervous and physical complaints, our bodies refused to cooperate anymore!
Anyway... it was obvious...We needed to quit everything in order to heal ourselves. We really NEEDED a long break!
THANKFULLY, almost everybody I asked agreed with us and was more than willing to HELP us, to give us some peace to steer away from the danger area so we could mend and replenish our energy reserves.
Our Fans (YOU) were the first to say: "Take time off! we will wait for you, no worries!"
Our fellow band-members were worried about stopping for 6 months (no income for them) but didn't mind a long break from touring with OMNIA so that they would finally have the time to devote their efforts to their own solo music projects which they have been working on for quite some time now! ;-)
We also received lots of support from all the various bookers and organisers around the world who had already booked OMNIA for shows.
We had to cancel many international Festival and venue shows including an entire THEATRE TOUR(!!) to make so much space for ourselves...
THANK YOU SO MUCH to all these kind organisers and Bookers (Like FaerieCon USA, Celtic Night Geluwe and AT-next bookings, connected theaters and many others ).
You gave us our time back (despite the contracts we had) without making a big deal out of it!
We really needed to make this healing space possible for Stenny.
Thank you ALL from the bottom of our hearts!
Jenny and me are now in the beginning of our Sabbatical break. And we have started to heal, but boyoboyoboy! It is really fuuuucked up!
There are many times we are perfectly happy and we feel kinda relaxed ..and...BAM!! You suddenly find yourself just sitting and crying, for no real reason. Huge sobs from the depths of your soul, no words, no real thoughts, just pain and sorrow (sounds pityfull doesn't it?)
Sometimes we hardly sleep because of the waves of fear and pain and paranoia that pester us like nasty little goblins that sit on your head in the night.
Sometimes I feel sooo much anger at the injustices of this world that I want to scream, kill and destroy it all!!
Other times just lying around in bed seems to take all my strength...leaving me with not enough energy left in my spirit to lift a hand or speak a word.
Yep we is pretty fucked up... but not all the time!
These are first world problems!
You wanna know what the good thing is?
We have food, we have shelter, we have love, we have time!
We know about our damage now!
So We can fix this!
and YOU have given us the means to stop working and travel the world for fun!
We are going to go and have mandatory enjoyment now!
We are forcing ourselves to do lots of entertaining things and NOT work!
We go for long walks, we read HUNDREDS of books, we eat only the finest Stenny food, we drink the finest wines, we are giving ourselves all the things we never had a chance to enjoy properly.
We are travelling and chilling and relaxing and enjoying this planet for a while, with all the good things YOU have given to us over the years. Enjoying the fruits of our labours.
We are actually going to start by going for a long stay to a tropical island in the Carribean!! (suggested to us by one of YOU actually)
Yohohooo! Coconuts! Rum! and (eco) reef diving!...hehehe! ...we be Pirates after all!... I can already talk lika pirate 'cause it's basically Cornish!
We are going to travel some more, we are going to visit friends, we are just ...BEING...
Right now we do whatever the hell we like, and the rest of the world be damned!
Fuck this HumanRace, we ain't running anymore ;-)
The "World of OMNIA" is YOURS and MINE and it's here to stay :-)
but right now the core-part of this "OMNIA" world has to return to the basics...
Back to where it all came from:
Stenny, Love, Freedom and Nature's timeless spirit
ps: this is why I haven't designed any new OMNIA Art for a while and why I won't be blogging as often as I used to. (but that doesn't mean that I won't be thinking of YOU)
pps: the Art of the world of omnia stil rolls on in other ways... because in Denmark's Lavastudio Christopher Juul (Valravn, Euzen, Heilung) is working on a massive re-mix CD using the enormous library of OMNIA musick taken from ALL albums since "PaganFolk" to make entirely new and amazing PaganFolk songs out of them!
We mucked around together on all the material when Jenny and I were visiting them this winter and now He has undertaken the momentous task of building it on his own (so we can chill... he's a really sweet guy you know)
This will be a reflection on half a lifetime spent on reviving the ancient spirit of nature and the poetry of our ancestors in sound and musick as you have never heard it before... well worth the waiting for!... are YOU exited?...I'm Exited! ;-)
ppps: If you feel you want to keep the spirit of the World of OMNIA alive aswell and you know some way of expressing it (like making drawings or photographs inspired by OMNIA) or by covering an OMNIA song in your own way and spreading the musick and the philosophy or by performing a dance or some weird and freaky thing on OMNIA musick... then please share them with each other and with us!